Pelangi.

In the verge of dark for too many,

Roaring thunder broke the lonely night,

Then you come leading the way through,

Prosper with those shine,

Giving birth to serene of the rainbow,

Each color of joy it meant,

each pains that fade,

granting moment its peak,

but time consume to be desirous,

regret is no one urge,

grateful for those who learn,

tho rainbow will fade,

believe as it is,

tears of hope will never fail,

one day surely will be yours,

cause you are my sunshine.

Close friends, that Day, will be enemies to each other, except for the righteous 

(Az-Zukhruf, 43:67)

Assalamualaikum :) May peace be upon you.

Rope

I'm too young to set my own direction.

How far will I go?

How high will I soar?

None are matter if you were there to set the course alone. You will always being tied to a rope that root you back to where you come from. Root that emphasize the definition of who you are. Root that direct you foreground. Dont forget that.

If you lost the rope. Untied. Neither you or anybody else would know which part of the continent will you land on. You will possibly drifted way off shore and soon helplessly drown. None of us will know. None of us can be certain.

Moment.

I asked her a question.

if u could be anywhere in this world where would u be? why? please elaborate the given question not less than 150 words 

She sum it up all well. Good enough to carve a smile on me through out the day. Thanks for spending time on it. :) Well, here`s mine.

Kecik2 dlu slalu mimpi nak g kl then nak wat team  power rangers sniri lawan monster *seyes T.T 

pengaruh power rangers kuat sgt. hahaa. Pastu slalu berangn nak nek flight g bulan la..wat gundam la per la smua sbb, ayah slalu travel. ==" Tp travel dah tuu sorg2 lak..g jepun, india, pusing2 europe,china la..bila tnya "asik Ayah je jalan...bila lak kami". His answer was simple, "Abg belajar dlu pandai2 nnt leh ayah ibu adek2 melancong skali". That was merely 10 years ago, ayat yg masih segar bugar mcm sayur uncle ikan pasar kelang lama jual :) Even now it isn't in my capability to reach for the hope n i regret that. :( 

Smpai skrg usaha ak utk carik mksud ayat tu n all he had to say is, places are not important. It is who would u be with is important. 

Ok..meh straight to the point..

Klu bleh..dlm byk2 tempat ak nak lagi skali melawat makam Rasulullah s.a.w. Igt lagi masa first berdiri dpn tu, Ya Allah. rasa keciknya diri ni. rasa daif sgt2...byknya dosa2 sblm berangkat ke bumi para pejuang ini. Lemah sendi2 nie smua, sebak didada only Allah knows..How unworthy I am. Sekilas doa sahaja yang ak mmpu pada ketika itu. Nk solat lama2 kat raudah pun..ntah la..ramai sgt hamba2 Allah yg nasib serta perasaan sma seperti ak..ruang terpaksa diberikan utk mereka juga..habes2 tu jalan lg skali di makam Rasulullah s.a.w..sblhnya sahabat2 baginda Khalifah Abu Bakar As-Siddiq r.a and Khalifah Umar al-Khattab r.a...After that, I was having no other activities than just jalan2..mundar mandir sekitar pekarangn Masjid Nabi..just watching the world goes by..kengkadang rehat sat stop solat wat sunat ke pa yg ptt ke.. Kengkadang terpikir juga ketika ak ada kat situ. I wasn't even look far, I just look at myself. Is this really what Prophet Muhammad s.a.w would have wanted from his ummah. *sighhh..jauh skali..lg sedih bila ak bayangkan smua yg berada di tanah air..generasi2 bawah ak..atau generasi ak sendiri. During my stay there, I was glad enough to have my sisters and ibu to be along side with me. For at least those who I loved were there with me to share the same grieve as mine. Thank you Allah. I'll definitely be going there again someday..

The most is wherever I'm, I always be at my best to be closest with Allah s.w.t. Knowing that He forever will be there for me no matter where these feet step onto. Just don't lose Him in you, because Him will not ever lose you.

p/s : thanks kecikkk..after all I just realise it was u who started it first. Ya Allah, rahmatilah perjalanan dia dalam menjadi seorg doktor. :3 *nnt leh bkk klinik free kat ak :P

Pulang

Gravity will hold us tight upon where we standing,

never He let gravity defy what is right,

that is how men are able to keep straight,

standing firm holding dreams and hopes. :)

UPU

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Today post is about my UPU result as it went quite well yesterday. I did not exactly got what I really wish for but still alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah swt who gave me ways n still continue making way for me.

Yesterday, I took my time scrolling through facebook, twitter and any other means, observing what do these friends had to say regarding their UPU result. Some of them are really grateful of what they are having. Some of them are just being passive. Some of them are just pasrah and redha.

Pasrah and Redha 

Firstly, I will toss away pasrah. Giving up is never an option. However, redha is something I`ll look up last, when everything are already being said, done and perfected by Allah swt. I`ll look up redha last, mainly because of the effort and also I know that I have not done enough yet. Even if the result of something is clear, there is still something in the slightest and weirdest effort we can do to change it and soon produce a better future. and then! it`ll be time for me to redha. (Y) :))

These two different words act the same but uncannily different. Please, don`t get me wrong but for me these are the words for those who are done trying. Those who have reached their limit. Pasrah (submission) word for those who already give up trying and leaving the rest for Allah swt fate to lead to. Redha is accepting at ease for what Allah swt had granted.

It is undeniably true that the cycle of effort, doa and tawakal is something to hold upon. However, little did we all know that this cycle will never end. Some people act like as if everything in the past are things that can not be change. Static and permanent. 

Lets just take a glimpse of simple grammar rule. There are past, present, and the future. Past is an event that took place in the past of current time. Present is the event that take place at current time. Future is the event will be taking place somewhere after current time. In my personal point of view, which is significantly arguable and not fixed,  past events are the result of the past and perfected events (a perfected and fixed past). Present are the result of the past. And future are the result of present. The best news is some of these past event can be change. They are not yet perfected nor even they are perfected.

Some of us assume that let bygones be bygones. Truly. Yes! We can not change it, but did anyone ever thought about fixing it? Just simply take the past to the present and fix it. So that the future will hold a better result. As simple as that. If we leave the past unfix, soon enough, long before u even know it, u are already lost. Lost to your own game. Sad isn`t it. 

Well I do hope that I made a slight sense for some reason.  

Till then, thank you for your time :))

Lost

There will be days when we feel as if decisions are impossible to make.

There will be days when the road not taken is the road that never existed.

There will be days when drama stand for Dumb Retard Asking for More Attention.
There will be days when you feel like you lost hope.
There will be days when you realise how bad does a stranger can affect you,
There will be days when everything does not even make sense anymore

but when that days come, past seems to fade, future is nowhere stand beyond your grip,

there is no one else who you can rely upon to except for Most Gracious, Most Merciful
Allah s.w.t

So Long

There is only damn thing that I obviously hope for. 

You just could had not known, didn't you?

You just could not tell, didn't you?

You are blinded by your self-exceeded ego.,

You are seeking too much from something that is too less,

You have neglected chances laid before your eyes,

You have neglected for what was must for you,

You had tossed all for where it should had not been there.

Now, just to think of it,

You had lost it all,

So long.

Trust

Assalamualaikum,

Earlier today,I was at Penang, she texted me.

"the most important value in teamwork apa?",so i answered, "Trust.(Y)".

I was persistence with the answer, although she did put up some sense.

"Tolerate (Y) okeyy, thnx. Haha
Respect!" :))))

Later on, I went home and spent time nearly 15 minutes googled the word "trust". It was a sobering experience. I had stranded to so many tabs before I could finally found a descent reading of trust.

This is what I get. Well, in my very own opinion, at least.

• When ayah first azan during at the very moment I was born
• When ibu selflessly carried me for 9 month with her.
• When I first learn to walk without ibu and ayah to hold upon.
• When I first had my education in school.
• When ayah let me to have my first ride.

The most of all when I was first born Islam. Allah s.w.t trust me in being one of his servant who`ll do good. Insya-Allah.

Tak menjawab soalan ak nieh... =_="

Based on her question.

In term of human or social relation. To make it easy. To answer the question itself. Trust in teamwork is essential. An organization without trust will be full of fear and paranoid suspicion. If team-mate doesn’t put trust on each other to do things right, everybody will suffer the miserable of it. They will need to spend more time watching their own backs rather than producing productivity.

Hence, trust is fundamental in teamwork. Not only for teamwork but in life. If you cannot trust in anything, life becomes intolerable—a constant battle against paranoia and looming disaster. You can’t have relationships without trust, let alone good ones. I suspect more marriages are wrecked by the lack of trust rather by other causes. Plus, lack of trust, will only cause more burden on one shoulder. Causing more stress-related illness because carrying such heavy workload alone.

We have little to lose by trying. By starting to trust on others put balance in workload. It make life more pleasant and less stressful. However, some people aren`t that trustworthy. You just have to be more conscious on who you are going to trust. Life isn`t perfect. Isn`t it??

He earn trust.

Front Line.

Assalamualaikum, :)))

Another day at British Council has never yet been so tiring. Having to walk such a long distance from Butterworth Jetty to Penang was such a nice set up to grant myself a lil bit of alone time, accompanied by the all time favourite companion, iPhone. This short awhile journey also having halted on its way, mesmerized by many story as the world passed by


However, this one particular occasion, really got my attention in having a thought on how we ; man obviously, had such burden laid upon on each and every of our shoulder. We lay platforms : what we will do for ourselves, education, families, health care, and so on. We assess our positions in relation to them and then make a choice, which will determine how the front line will be led in the coming years.

Even though the path of choices are clear, some of us do things that swayed him from responsibility and things that matters The front line are those of a men who are the barricade of an organization. If these leaders are not strong enough, then how about those who are rooting at the back. They are even weaker, clueless.

Indeed, we offered the Trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains, and they declined to bear it and feared it; but man [undertook to] bear it. Indeed, he was unjust and ignorant. -Surat Al-Ahzab (33:72)

Men are in charge of women by [right of] what Allah has given one over the other and what they spend [for maintenance] from their wealth. So righteous women are devoutly obedient, guarding in [the husband's] absence what Allah would have them guard. But those [wives] from whom you fear arrogance - [first] advise them; [then if they persist], forsake them in bed; and [finally], strike them. But if they obey you [once more], seek no means against them. Indeed, Allah is ever Exalted and Grand. -  Surat An-Nisā' (4:34)

new generation front line - insya-Allah :D

Thank you peeps.

We are.

"The moment of impact. The moment of impact proves potential for change. Has ripples effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashing together. Making them closer than before. While sending others spinning off into great ventures. Landing them where you've never thought you've found them. That's the thing about moments like these. You can't, no matter how hard you try, controlling how it's gonna affect you. You just gotta let the colliding part goes where they may. And wait. For the next collision."    

                     

                                                                                                                                                 

Refreshment.

Its already over. My head feels dizzy. I could not ever bare to reach my phone, but with all might, I just did, And it was late at noon. Dafuq. I yelled. Never thought I would had miss subuh prayer.

Still, how grateful am I to be able held by sheer love from Allah s.w.t  Allah gave more than HE actually took. For that cause, I felt neglected. I have failed to care properly. Then again, there are always a tomorrow. And giving up is never entrusted. Just have to try a little bit harder. That`s all it take.

***********

"Abang!!! If ur not wake up by now. I`ll take the car to work. So, hurry up, take a bath. N dont forget to tidy up ur room," 

I stood up alone. *sigh* A deep breath I sipped into my lung. How I miss that voice. After all, being home was not so bad after all. If it cost me to be with the one I love by exchanging for the one I cared - my friends. Than it fine by me, I guess.
Sound, fair. They are not going anyway after all.Still got will to meet up someday.right?? 

See!! Allah s.w.t had never test or valued His servants with something that could not be handled. We would always make it thru because it "handle-able" :))  

***********

Is it me, or kids just had their own rezeki. Yesterday, I brought my youngest sibling to McD. I took them anyway despite how burdensome I felt at first. I was merely in hurry. All because to catch up with a football match between Kedah and Kelantan. As soon as I arrived at home, Kedah already in the leading by 2-0. I wooed..Well..taking my lil sis and bro could not be so bad after all. I got myself a nice mouth-watering set of Triple Cheese Burger. Followed with a nice lazy couch to lean on. Well everything set so perfect that night even though at last Kedah could not make it to final.

Well everything just seemed nice.
Later on, I had a  very long chat with a friend whose later on requested me to publish a post. Well, here it is now... :)))

***********

To do list for this break...

• clean up room..toss everything unnecessary away.
• find a job.
• gain weight..obviously..I lost few kilo in KMKu... ==''
• sleep while I can...
• went to British Council.

***********

That`s about it now, I guess...well.

Thank you kerana menyemak :)))

Holding On.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and a very raining afternoon of Sunday.

Sometimes, things can be hard to just let go. I can only miss so much and yet, we are of where we are and what we are. None can change it.Not all the time, but every now and again it pops back into my head and it makes me realise. I miss those days at KMKulim.

What made me said so???

Lets just say,

I miss how a slightest piece of Double Cheese Burger could perfectly filled a bunch of Akurian empty tummies. It insanely ridiculous but that the truth.

I miss how watching friend play games together can be so much fun than playing alone.

I miss how a single flimsy bed can fit three 'pre-grown' adult perfectly. We would then, start sharing every single story that we could think of.

I miss how every weekend we would take a long morning walk around the campus. Deliberately 'misplacing' ourselves in from of the girls dormitory building for some reason. They would be smart enough to not set even a foot outside.

I miss hows on every Tuesday, Adzeem n Kupa would rush all way to Dewan Selera just so they would not miss our absolute favourite tv series, Vanilla Cokelat.

I miss how we will jokes about Baling's only KFC being the most advance facilities it host. hahaha. (sorry Aiman its just too historically funny..and most importantly. I miss u).

I miss how Firdaus would make us walk to the dorm uphill through KoopMart just for absolutely nothing. He just love  to go there for absolutely no reason...still its super annoyingly hilarious.

I miss how Amir Abriza never yet have found his own bed at the dorm..hahaha...he was quite a freeloader..he went around crashing others bed.

I miss how frequently Mohsein and Aiman would stay in front of my laptop playing NFS and be really good at it and also trying to outrun the shit of each others score. Worth to mention, that Firdaus was the worst NFS driver among us. Haha.

I miss how Hazrol oldskool jokes never got boring. His 'loyar buruk' was something in him could never been left out. He was really phenomenal. A truly good friend in deed.

I miss how Sofi and Aslam were never dried out of joke. With them K2 tutorial seems so much cheerful and enjoyable despite Mr Fauzi ridiculously redundant assignment. They made everybody laugh to death. Haha.

I miss how Nabil was the only person who would come to me and use my phone to surf his facebook account. He was also the only person who I can trust with my fb password. It is just in him that I can really trust him. That`s all.

Last but not least, to everyone else in the campus who make life there so much fun.

Most importantly, I miss everything; the laughter, a series of practical joke followed by one after another, how we would share the hardest moment and How we would help each other make it through every single day. Its priceless.

We were only good when everybody is around. We tried making all the efforts to change things. We try not to be ourselves but to be better instead. Maybe at these point from now on, I`m better off alone. They had taught me a lot, now its my turn to use it for good.

Maybe I could just reach them through facebook, texting or what so ever means that Allah has given us. However, maybe it was really hard for us to see each other so frequent any more. Though in reality we don`t even care. Its the friendship that hold us strong. Somehow it`s also sad to try to even think that those I do deeply care about, cant be there for me in so sudden when I really need them. They cant possibly be all the way from Terengganu to Kulim, or even from Rawang to Kulim. Cant they? We are miles apart.

I know that now, we led our own lives that few of us will deem fit. I cant just jump up on everyone episode every now and then. They have their lives going on and I have mine.

So just I have to it over myself and think, friends came and go. They are not gone. They would just go. Some will come back. So make new ones while waiting for others to come.

So, you are sad sometimes? we`re not.
So, you afraid of tomorrow? not most people.
So, you feel neglected and alone? you got family.
So, what is the problem?

Allah s.w.t had made it real fair for all of us including me. HE gave then HE took. and so..

 Then which of the favors Of your Lord will ye deny?

Alhamdulillah. Till then. Just stay strong fellow mates...

Perjalanan

Assalamualaikum serta selamat malam

Lemah kaki ini menyusun langkah,
Lemah akal ini menyisip bicara,
Lemah daya ini mengatur takdir,
Lemah hati ini mengukir bahagia,
Lemah dunia ini menyatu jiwa,
Lemah tanpa arah itulah perjalanan,